The Best Day Of My Life....

God's discipline is never fun. It is not something that I look forward to. No one does. The reward though is great and worth every ounce of it. The Lord has had me in a tough place. A place where you get to have your true heart revealed. A place where you think you just might die because the blackness of your heart is too much to take in front of a holy God. When you get into His presence, it is ultimately the truth that you will begin to see what is not so holy about you but it is for your good. It is for your growth and the Lord will never show it to you or bring you to that place until He knows you are capable of handling it and when He knows it is time to rid you of it. So, I guess I was ready and I guess it was time. Breaking is just not easy no matter how you go about it. It's just not but it is only after the breaking that the healing can begin. So, let the healing start, I say because I've had about all the breaking I can stand!!! LOL. He was so faithful to have the one person He knew that their words would make a difference call me today and talk with me. As hard as it was to hear, I knew it was right. I had been running from the call on my life and God was tired of my pride and of my running and she frankly told me so. It was just confirmation for the last three days of torment...lol. So, because I trust this person and love her, I took it to heart and I surrendered. Hands up, white flag flying, it's over, you win God. I will do what you want and not what I want. I will be obedient. Isn't that all He wants anyway? For us to get to the point where we say "I surrender, You win!". Feels like a thousand pounds has been lifted from my shoulders. I am scared to death to step out into these waters I have run from and dodged and done everything else just so I wouldn't have to do it but gotta go anyhow. No choice. The battle for my destiny has already been waged and won and been set in motion for me before I was ever known to my mom and dad. The only choice I can take is to walk it out and trust that He will not let me fail or fall. With Him I can because He would not have gone to so much trouble to make me miserable unless I could...lol. This is the best day of my life... Thank you Lord...Let's get to work...