Hormones!!! Everyone run for cover!!

HORMONES!!!!!! Can I get an amen from all the ladies out there who can relate?!! I have had a cyst on my right ovary for about 3 months or so now(well, actually longer, that is just when I got the ultrasound). It will not go away and so now they have to remove the entire ovary. It is still 14 days away and can I tell you that if my family had a vote, they would say do it tomorrow PLEASE!! It is like being pregnant but with no reward! Hot flashes, nausea, dizziness, foggy thinking, cramps, pain, and oh let's not forget the mood swings...can we just say Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde! I can't stand my own self!! So, if anyone can relate to this out there, how 'bout throw up a prayer for me especially one specifically asking for my help not to take anyone out!!! LOL God is so good. Hard to understand why he created us women the way He did while men just sit there looking like they have no clue what is going on(and they don't!), but still HE is SO SO SO GOOD!!! Just had to vent today. Thanks for listening!!!

The Best Day Of My Life....

God's discipline is never fun. It is not something that I look forward to. No one does. The reward though is great and worth every ounce of it. The Lord has had me in a tough place. A place where you get to have your true heart revealed. A place where you think you just might die because the blackness of your heart is too much to take in front of a holy God. When you get into His presence, it is ultimately the truth that you will begin to see what is not so holy about you but it is for your good. It is for your growth and the Lord will never show it to you or bring you to that place until He knows you are capable of handling it and when He knows it is time to rid you of it. So, I guess I was ready and I guess it was time. Breaking is just not easy no matter how you go about it. It's just not but it is only after the breaking that the healing can begin. So, let the healing start, I say because I've had about all the breaking I can stand!!! LOL. He was so faithful to have the one person He knew that their words would make a difference call me today and talk with me. As hard as it was to hear, I knew it was right. I had been running from the call on my life and God was tired of my pride and of my running and she frankly told me so. It was just confirmation for the last three days of torment...lol. So, because I trust this person and love her, I took it to heart and I surrendered. Hands up, white flag flying, it's over, you win God. I will do what you want and not what I want. I will be obedient. Isn't that all He wants anyway? For us to get to the point where we say "I surrender, You win!". Feels like a thousand pounds has been lifted from my shoulders. I am scared to death to step out into these waters I have run from and dodged and done everything else just so I wouldn't have to do it but gotta go anyhow. No choice. The battle for my destiny has already been waged and won and been set in motion for me before I was ever known to my mom and dad. The only choice I can take is to walk it out and trust that He will not let me fail or fall. With Him I can because He would not have gone to so much trouble to make me miserable unless I could...lol. This is the best day of my life... Thank you Lord...Let's get to work...

Who Is Really With You...

It has been quite a whirlwind these last few months. But even more, these past two weeks have been ridiculously stormy. Nothing unsusual. Been there before. Just seems par for course since things were going along beautifully that the enemy would try an attempt to take me down, my family down, my finances, and my mind. Even the most seasoned veteran would have struggled. But you learn some things. One, who God is and that when you are at your weakest, He will fight for you. He will not leave you. He will never break a bruised reed... Two, who your friends are. Not those friends who are fair weathered and would rather you find an interest in them and what is going on in them than take five minutes to find where you are. I'm talking about
the ones who wear God like a cloak and put on His character and put themselves and their busy schedules and minds aside for you. Those who will fight for you, are with you when you are at your weakest, and those who will not be as Job's friends, those who will not break you when you are bruised. The All-Weathered friend. These are the ones who leave a mark on your life. The ones that truly make a difference. These are the ones who will get muddy with you going through the trenches because they have already proven that they will even in the smallest of circumstances so you know they will stand with you in the toughest as well. Trustworthy... True... A love that they prove in actions and not just speak to you about having in their heart, you can see the evidence...These people are rare... If you find one, make sure you do your best to do your part to get your mind off of you and celebrate them so they will feel appreciated and like they are a treasure, because they are... Believe me they are rare, you don't need to leave them wondering just how great they are... BE THERE!!!!