You Won't Relent...

I'm sitting here listening to the song "You Won't Relent" with tears running down my face as I am reminded just how much You love me. So much that You are jealous for my heart. So much that you will not relent until you have every single part of me. Every ounce, the good the bad and the ugly, every part. Even the parts others have rejected and wounded and bruised. Even the parts of me that have inflicted the wounds and bruises. You want it all. I guess it is only when You have all the pieces that You can begin to put them all back together...Take all the pieces...
And even when I do relent, you still don't. You still seek me out and You pant for me as much as I pant for You. Your thirst for me is even more than my thirst for You. I can't imagine this great love that You have for me. Someone so messed up but yet so perfect in Your eyes. Someone others gave up on, but still You loved me. Someone who has caused hurt more than she has caused love, yet You do not relent. I sit here in this house full of people and yet I just want to steal away with You. I miss You right this very minute till I ache. I want to find out why you won't relent in Your pursuit of me. What is it that You see in me that no one else does and that I myself cannot see? Do You see a beauty I cannot see? Do you see past my flaws, past my mistakes, past my broken trail of tears and destruction? Do you see a vessel worthy of use by You? What do You see, My Lord? What do You see? Why do You stay and fix my brokenness when no one else sees the reason to try? Why do You extend grace when I deserve no mercy? I want to see what You see. And I want to give You what you are seeking for from me. Tell me Daddy what You desire of me. It is Your's... And with my last ounce I will praise You...You are more worthy than I can even comprehend and it is all I have to give You in return for what You have given me. I pray it is sweet to You. I love you, my Lord and my Savior, and I will serve You until I can serve You no more... Thank You for being jealous for me...Thank you that Your opinion of me doesn't ride on man's opinion...Thank you for loving me...Thank you for never relenting...Thank you for everything... Come and consume me until You and I are one...I pray that is Your desire...You are literally my everything...the very air I breathe...